Trust Issue!

After putting down the phone with someone, I just felt miserable. I didn't feel peace. Instead, I'm feeling weary. What is the matter with Trust? Humans work similar to computers. To computers, trust basically works in the form of authentication of certificates or a certain form. Can we ever be trusting always?

Interestingly, my name translates itself as Trustworthy on those tags I've seen in Trumpet Praise. But many times, some say I'm trustworthy, some say I'm not. The truth is, I'm not bothered by Man's comments as much as before. I used to be super bothered by it. Today, just only minutes ago, I felt hurt in a way as I've placed my trust in one particular person. I was shaken. Badly shaken. I went to seek solitude and spend time reading a book and talked to God. In my heart, that tugging came.

As I lift it up to my best friend, Jesus, my Lord and Savior, I felt better. Though I'm still slightly upset about it, I hope when I rest, it'll just wear off. Sometimes, it's best to let things go easily. But I guess we go through life with Trust Issues all the time. Questions like..... how to measure trust? is it possible in the first place? trust - what's the measure? what's the criteria for trust? In this world, trust is not really in place anymore. But I pray that it will come a day where trust can be built much easier.

Looks like I'm just grumbling. Remember what Bro Chris Yang shared with me last Sunday. I guess I'll just stop grumbling and arguing. Leave it to the Lord Jesus Christ, my best friend, who will never forsake me, one who will guard my heart and my life.

Seeking for my calling and purpose.

Be Blessed!

It's Over! Freedom!

Finally, FYP (24th Jan) is over and it's gonna be freedom in a few weeks time as I'm going to graduate from RP. Speaking of graduation, I'm still unsure of what God really wants of me to do. But I'm sure it's going to be fun and really exciting for the next few months to come. RP prayer cell will resume next week and it's gonna be another fantastic time!

Shuan, my best FYP partner
*Been tough on you*

Finally, it's OVER! FYP = Find Your Peace!

After the FYP presentation, my heart was at ease and felt that God really blessed me with a great time presenting and in the evening, I had the privilege to drive Val, Lyna, Shuan back home. On the way, I picked Justin up and went home to get a change. From home to church, I remembered that I needed a marker and I remembered praying for it. Guess what? I called Wen Jie and she brought it and she felt it when she was praying on Wednesday morning! LOL. Oh yeah, cell is on Wednesday since last Wed.

Retail RFID teams with Dr Loo

Smile away! What a relieve after FYP presentation.

As I was driving, I really felt freedom coming along its way and this is a start of a new journey. SMU life, RP prayer cell, Prayer Generation (Prayer@8:30am), Music Ministry and many more. It's time to rock the house of God! LOL. In short, I'm just joyful and glad. Pics on its way.

Be Blessed!

Mirror Effect!

A timely message it is. As I was reading my devotional, I realized that God really brought a timely message to some of us, especially to Ho Wai, Rachel and me. Mirror effect! How this came about is that we were praying and God showed us many things throughout this few weeks and it's amazing on how God activates us and speaks!

In today's passage, it was talking about openness with God and to live in Him, reflecting His glory, beholding His glory. Living life mirroring the glory of God. As I rest today for tomorrow's lesson @ SMU and prepare for FYP presentation @ RP, 2pm; the Lord just gave me so much rest till I'm geared into His presence.

Cheese Omelette for you?

Hmmm, hope to make a better one soon.

Spent some time reflecting about my life. But still I need more of these before I graduate and I'm gonna look for a job! If not, I'll starve to death. LOL. I realized something. I've not been cooking and I kinda lost my skill of making a good cheese omelette.

Oliver on the keys!

Ultimate Band!

Future Worship Leader?

Worship!

School of Rock!

Shan Yu

Whose hands?

Mr Kang..... Gerald on the keys!

Our bassist, Zhong Kai!

My Understudies Coordinator Partner!
Looks fierce hor? LOL!

Anyway, had fun at Prayer Generation, Prayer@8:30am on Sunday. Not forgetting our wonderful worship jamming session which God blessed it and taught us about worship. 2007 will be a year of restoration, consecration and a season of rest and stillness.

Be Still before the Lord!
Be Blessed!

A Fresh Perspective

Over the night at SMU, three of us are rushing our FYP. It's been more than 12 hours after my UT yesterday evening. I never knew that God can keep be STILL and I'm still awake, listening to His voice, keeping myself whole. As I was reading my devotional online, I felt that it was timely. Really timely. As Rachel always say..... Find Your Peace (FYP)..... I finally found it! Shuan, Jerry and I are really energetic and we had McDonald's breakfast! =)

Thermal..... SMU in the morning!

Is that Shuan in the reflection?
(Wah, I'm still awake!)

Freshness is not the result of obedience; it comes from the Holy Spirit. Obedience keeps us "in the light as He is in the light" - 1 John 1:7. I thank God that freshness comes from the Holy Spirit, refreshing me the whole night at SMU! Throughout the night, I started 2 new blogs and I'm deeply inspired by God's humor. I was trying hard to create a blog. God showed me one blog address..... I obeyed and created it. It's "In The World Of Sinners" @ http://worldofsinners.blogspot.com and I'm amazed that it went through after I tried doing another one for my personal prayer blog.

Tired..... ZzZzZ

A smile to chase off tiredness!

Indeed, a fresh perspective, God has given me throughout the night. Inspired by His love, I created that blog to help gather answers from those who love God and Jesus! From now, I doubt no more, I avoid no more. Lord, bless each and everyone of us. Anoint us with Your oil, Your Holy Spirit. Pour forth Your Spirit on us. I'm thankful for Your gracious love!

Be Blessed!

Extraordinary Week!

As FYP dateline draw near, I'm less afraid but rather, I'm drained. I fell sick since yesterday morning till now. Suspect to be caught by the flu bug suddenly. Nevertheless, it was quite a good day yesterday. Had the coolest car rides yesterday by Rachel and gotta thank her for getting me the cold tablets and tissue paper!

First time trying this. But I guess it's quite cool.

Many packets of tissues.
I only took a few that day, the others were left in Rach's car.

After lesson, Rach and I went to church for Extraordinary General Meeting. It was cool as this is kinda the first time we are attending this. It was about the church building extension project. Though I felt that it was draining my energy, I'm thankful and in awe by the end results. Thereafter, Ho Wai, Rachel and I went to Blk 85 (Bedok) for dinner/supper. Had a great time as we shared our opinions, thoughts and jokes.

The little soft toy in Rach's car!

There are many things that happened this week and I want to give God all the glory. Let's start from the FYP meetings everyday, especially on Monday. Shuan and I had difficulties in getting the writing of RFID and we solved it on Monday. Today, I had an email about graduation ceremony and more updates to come once confirmation arrives. I've been asked to be the valedictorian for the cohort for RP and I really think it's God's appointment and my last chance to really testify of God's goodness.

Sunrise - by Rachel!

In any case, I've made new friends this week and I'm really blessed. Lots of things going through my mind now and I've to start working on my FYP again. Till then, I'm off to work and hope I recover soon. I serve an awesome God who will never forsake me. Increase my faith, my dear Lord Jesus.

Be Blessed!

1st Youth Service + Prayer@8:30am

Yesterday marks the 1st Youth Service in 2007! Pastor Derek preached about Identity Crisis and adoption. It was meaningful as I was asking about my Identity during end of last year. Everything seems to be good as God is real to me since then till now and it will last through eternity. Today, as I led worship for Prayer@8:30am, Ho Wai and I felt the Holy Spirit moving mightily and this is only the beginning.

It is good as we both felt strongly that having an agenda isn't what God really want. It was spot on when they started to share the word from God and the word was Consecrate! Consecration began and worship was in another dimension. I've never led worship in such a manner! It was really refreshing. I can't contain it. Praising God got easier, worship is simply what the whole session was. Many brought back the essence of looking to God, the Father.

As I was praying and leading the group into worship, I sensed the Holy Spirit activated in me and I'm really glad for what God has done in the midst and got me away from my FYP, blast me away with His anointing upon the many people. =) Best of all, I got to know someone today. Her name is Rachel and guess what? She's from SMU! LOL! I felt the Lord telling me about SMU during the first day of school. RP, SMU and other schools will be cells growing like crazy. None can stop this movement. Revival is sweeping through all the institutes.

Prayed for Cheryl and I hope she's feeling better now. I'm seeing a brand new year where the supernatural will take place and it is NOW! Just as I led this song "It Is Now" that for such a time as this, we can praise God in freedom! We are set free! To experience that supernatural power and see what God will do in the Youth Ministry, I invite you to come and pray with us on every Sunday (rain or shine) @ 8:30am at Blk 6C.

Nothing beats more than God's heartbeat. Lord Jesus, I ask for your renewed favor as we serve you in the things we do for you! Keep us safe in Your arms. In Jesus name, Amen!

"Unless the Lord builds a house, its builders labor over it in vain; unless the Lord watches over a city, the watchman stays alert in vain." Psalm 127:1 [The Blessing of the Lord]

Be Blessed!

Back To RP..... Weeks before Graduation!

Three years..... It will be soon over! My entire poly life. Wonder if I've really make good use of it to reach out to people? I think I did! But most importantly, I've known many friends, facilitators and many co-workers which made my poly life interesting!

Anyway, Happy Birthday to Joleen jie! She's been a blessing to me since Sec 1. LOL! We've all grown up. Drawing near to graduation, there are many thoughts running through my mind as I pray that I can get the IDA Scholarship. At the same time, I really hope that I can fulfill God's Will. Let's see what happens. I believe that God has the best for me. After attending SMU, I wonder I'll miss RP. Definitely, I'll miss the people in RP but as for the building, just a little..... coz it's far and the place is still in a mess! People just don't appreciate and don't take care of the facilities, etc. Very different from University life.

Thinking through, I hope that RP will have a strong prayer cell to pray for the students, the sick, the poor and needy, the fatherless, the many many people within its grounds. Dreams, Visions will reveal many more in time to come.

Sunset on 1st January 2007

My MacBook Pro Keyboard at Night!

Pretty Artistic hor?

I was bored, took some photos..... kinda artistic hor? Before I graduate, I'll take many pictures with my fellow friends, catch up with them and most importantly, tell them my hopes for them, continue to pray for them and be for them.

To God be the glory!

Be Blessed!

First Day In SMU!

First day in school and it isn't my parent school, RP. Shuan, Sequeena and a bunch of the RP students were at SMU for our first day of school! We will be back to RP tomorrow. Just came back from SMU and thank God, Dad pick Shuan and me from SMU to home. Really thankful for that.

Shuan
My Best FYP Partner!

Serious Mode! FYP in Progress!

Time passes very fast in SMU and we spent at least 12 hours in SMU. In the early morning, Shuan and I rushed to school for our first lesson at 8:30am to 11:45am. That's the timing for our lesson. LOL. It's good as we are fresh and can concentrate better, compared to the evening class. In any case, we stayed from then to around 10ish to rush our FYP. Met a couple of people at SMU. Dawn looks cool in her rebonded hair. Saw Vincent, ex-RP student and met up with Yifeng and Leong Yong, etc.

It's quite interesting as the culture is similar to RP but definitely refreshing and also dull coz it's lecture-based learning. My dream is to know all my SMU classmates by name and hopefully build strong friendships along the 16 weeks. In the midst of knowing them, I hope I can serve the RP prayer/cell group which I believe will grow in time to come.

The "Teh Bing" that refreshes me!

Getting Results! Fruitful Results!

Packing up! FYP made progress!
Spent 14 hrs in SMU! In Happy Mode!

FYP did made progress today as Shuan and I press in for more and I was much awake after drinking the Ice Teh! LOL. Shuan and I seemed to like SMU and probably will go SMU if we are financial stable. Let's hope that I can get the IDA scholarship, if it's God's Will! I love the place a lot!

More to come and FYP will soon be over. Celebration is on its way! 15 more days to go!! Love you, Jesus! Keep me strong! Poly Cell, I'll be coming after this two weeks of stress moments! Music Ministry, please keep me in prayers! I love you all! And to Juz, Cheryl & Joline, thanks for the encouragements! Not forgetting, Aurelia & Ee-Lyn! Thanks! I love you all!

Be Blessed!

Happy New Year 2007!

A Blessed New Year 2007! Indeed, 2006 was a time of restoration, a time of youths rising and even for me, a time of recharging and understand how God can speak in my life. Many interesting things happened for the past week and I'm doing my best to clear my doubts and thoughts.

Liz + Ho Wai + Kenny

Cheryl + Chris
At the prayer group gathering

Liz + Juz + Ken
Compliments of Juz's camera!

Juz + Julian + Elaine + Liz
Staying fervent for Prayer Ministry!

Yesterday, just a few hours ago, I was at the Prayer Group Gathering, spending time together on the last day of the year, sharing about our experiences and the joy of knowing God better. Thereafter, I had a good time with Ho Wai & Liz, sharing about my life, my relationships and pouring out my desires and goals for 2007.

Shen Lynn + Kenny + Gabriel

Kai Jie + Elizabeth

Shen Lynn + Kenny

LOL! First time take pics after knowing each other for a year.

My mei loves to bully her kor.

Really had a great time with them and went to Gab's house for dinner and watched TV for a while. Thereafter, we watched "Johnny English". Kinda fun though. Then we had our cocktail Nata De Coco drink plus some food. Had 2 rounds of Balderdash and started counting down for 2007. It was a simple affair and I pretty much liked it. Had the chance to catch up with mei and Gab.

Shen Lynn + Liz

My Cell Leader, Wen Jie! "Da Jie"!!!!!

She bullied me again. *SOB*

Happy Moments! Brotherhood!

Poly Cell + Visitors!
Gathering of the Peas!

This coming 18 days will be my most hectic time of the year and will be going for lessons at SMU on Wed, BCT UT on Thurs, Cell & Prayer @ RP on Thurs, Worship on Sunday. It's gonna be cool coz God will be my super ultra strength! To God be the Glory!

Be Blessed!