History Making.. Come, History Makers!!

I pondered as I was in the cab today.. in the morning when I was rushing for school.. coz I woke up late.. I remembered.....

I recalled that I did switch off my alarm clock.. I wonder y when I took it up juz now to turn it on, it was already on.. couldn't figure out y.. somehow I must be in my dreams when I switched it off.. but I really felt the physical item.. erm.. anyway, this doesn't matter..

What matter most was the experience I had during music retreat yesterday and today's cab incident.. I recalled abt family and I felt so sad.. PC always ask me.. What History today?? In the morning, I rushed out and sorta pissed my parents off.. guess when I was in the cab, I was reminded of the moments during the retreat and He showed me.. family, friends, etc.. relationships with others..

There.. then I realized that I was really foolish.. abt the way I reacted.. childish some may say.. but to me, foolish.. So, what History I make today?? I had my DRIVING LESSON.. haha.. after a good two months of break.. time for a re-test in June.. so scary.. anyway, hope I really make History.. to pass the test..

I helped my juniors today.. passed the BBQ pics too.. to those who attended.. if you count that as History Making.. I mean it should be part of it.. meeting friends, encouraging them, helping to be moulded.. of coz through God.. =)

My opinions abt History Making..

1) Obedience - To obey is better than sacrifice.. most times or rather all times.. when God wants us to be History Makers, we then to tell Him to wait.. sometimes (wait long long).. hai.. But this is one of the character I believe God is yearning for in us..

2) Surrendering - To surrender our lives to Him, submitting to His authority and to of coz submit to our leaders, accountabilities.. Surrendering is not juz wat we say.. but wat we act out in faith..

Just two points for today.. Hope it helps..

== History Makers == along the way..

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"What History have you make today?? - Be History Makers!!"

Music Ministry Retreat

Today.. We had Music Ministry Retreat at Chris' house..

His house is really big.. and I really mean BIG!! I arrived at ard 2pm sharp.. Kinda cool as I woke up late.. woke up at 1pm when I'm supposed to meet Pastor Jennifer in church at 1pm.. Rushed down by cab.. picked up Lynn.. + Ephraim.. and when we were nearer to Chris' house, we saw Kah Woon waiting aimlessly and he got the wrong place!! So, we picked him along the way.. It was really amazing I guess.. God seems to answer our prayers out of nowhere..

When we were there, we had ice-breakers + introduction of the team.. then we had the performance/acting before the Word, shared by Pastor Jennifer.. after the Word, we had our individual reflection time.. it was really awesome!! We got back together and had a wonderful time of worship.. after tat, we had our band meetings.. Band 1 led by Joy, Band 2 led by Joshua and the understudies by Pastor Jennifer.. It was really a great time of sharing abt our struggles in this understudies' programme and suggestions to improve the current stuff tat we are doing, etc..

After that, Franco + Joline + Zhuling + myself went to the balcony on the third floor and we had our chats.. it was really fun!! I guess we should have this more often!! Zhuling + I ate the whole bunch of bananas.. oops.. we were too hungry I guess?? haha.. We sat and chatted while Franco + Joline were chatting on the other side of the balcony.. Joshua came in and asked us to join them at the meeting area (where we had our activities).. Pastor Jennifer was sharing abt the movement of pple in band 1 + the feedback to all of us.. and abt our vision to have more and more bands!! Whooray!!

We had our dinner.. pizzas!!! watched the Salvador live concert!! it was really cool lor.. fellowship with the team, played Taboo!! cool!! left ard 10+pm.. cool!! well done team!!

Reflections: Never give up!! Spur each other up for a greater calling..

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Never regret what you are in for, coz God's always there for us!"

RP Awards + BBQ!!

RP Awards.....

Guess what?? We just went there to collect our certificate and some refreshments.. It was kinda boring even though I wanted to enjoy myself fully.. We were like just practically there for the sake of being there.. Even my mother and sister found it boring.. Anyway, I think they should be proud that I'm receiving the award..

I wasn't really smiling when I went up to receive the award.. in fact, I was really down.. kinda feel that receiving an award isn't what I wished for the most.. I wanted something else.. I feel empty suddenly.. but as I was pondering.. I was just needing someone.. My best friend, JC (that's His initials)..

At least, it was still very cool when all the Student Ambassadors (SA) took photos during the event.. really feel like family sia..... hey, we should go out more often!!

BBQ.....

Went to Danielle's place for BBQ to celebrate Arif's, Danielle's, Hazel's and Yongliang's birthday.. We had lots of chips.. which didn't finish.. not even half of the total packs!! Had lots of food like chicken, hotdogs, mee siam, etc.. wah.. drinks too!!

We threw Danielle and Yongliang into the pool though.. hahaha.. too bad, Rain didn't wanna be thrown in.. we had lots of fun, rite?? thx danielle + andrea for inviting me to your flintstones' outing.. really appreciated it..

Didn't go to church though.. think I really needed a break.. tomorrow is music ministry retreat.. thinking whether to attend or not.. am I escaping or wat??

Kenny ponders..

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"It's a matter of choice.. to take it or not to take it.. Life's a journey."

Thirsty.. Come Thirsty.. + Life Testimony..

I'm dehydrated.. my heart dehydrates as I see my life again and again.. I meant my past.. Why does it hurt so much?? Why does it dry my life so much?? Am I really pursuing my relationship with the Father??

The Past..

Knowing the past doesn't change the future.. Having those thoughts of the past just makes me feel my foolishness, my pains and sorrows.. What's wrong with my past?? I don't even understand my life.. Life's a journey, Life's a choice and Life's a purpose.. The past, the mistakes, the relationships and family makes the whole life so ugly, unpleasing and unacceptable. I live a life of a broken, dysfunctional family.. through sadness and pain.. till I met Jesus.. Till I knew God's dysfunctional family.. it's US.. All the wrongdoings in my life, my thoughts, my actions and my speech brought pain and sorrow at times.. Now, I've decided to leave my past.. Yes, leave my past.. forever..

The Present..

What's next?? Presently, I'm in Republic Polytechnic.. studying Information Technology.. currently year 2.. I'm definitely very involved in school.. I'm in Student Union Executive Committee, Student Ambassadors Management Committee, Cypher Club Representative, MAC IG and Open Source IG.. Besides school commitments, I'm very involved in church work too.. I'm presently helping out in my Poly Cell Group as Worship Co-ordinator; Sec 1 cell as assistant or helper; understudy (guitar) in the music ministry.. Everything seems to be going fine.. but I'm really thirsty.. thirsty.. i need that drip of revival.. that drip of water.. I need to be refreshed and really ask God what's next?? I want to know my purpose, really.. Help me, O Lord!! What's next??

The Future..

Who knows?? He does.. only He knows everything.. as I was playing my guitar, the Holy Spirit seems to inspire me again and again to write songs.. to start afresh.. to be renewed by the power of the Holy Spirit.. to be empowered by God, the Father.. That's my future.. to be led by Him and Him alone.. To lead a purpose driven life.. I was lost and now am found.. I was naked + He clothed me.. I was thirsty + He gave me a drink.. I was weak but now am strong.. Who makes the decision in the end?? it's US.. it's me in this case..

Invitation..

May I ask that if you are hungry, thirsty, lost, disappointed, disillusioned, discouraged, empty, living life with no purpose and more.. why don't you come to God and ask.. Ask for His mercy and grace.. drink from that living water so that you will NEVER be thirsty again.. NEVER again.. if you want and desire for this.. may I invite you to pray this prayer??

Heavenly Father,

I am lost, thirsty, hungry and empty. Father, I want to know you but I don't know how to. Father, I ask for your forgiveness over my sins and may You cleanse me from my sins through the blood of Jesus Christ. Lord, may your mercy and grace be upon me. Lord, teach me to forgive as you have forgiven me as I pray. Father, by the power of the Holy Spirit, guide me and lead me to know you more and Lord, take me out from my past and lead me to my purpose, my purpose driven life. Father, all I need is You and You alone. Father, forgive me and I lift all these in Your name.

In Jesus name I pray,
Amen!!

As you finish this prayer, may you be filled with the Holy Spirit and may you excel in your life in whichever path the Lord has lead and guide you. Be Blessed.

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Thirsty, Come Thirsty. There is none like You, Jesus, the One and Only One."

11 days later.....

It's been 11 days since I last blogged..

Things have changed.. lots of it though.. SA (Student Ambassadors) interview sessions are over, CCA Launch ended.. Now is the time for Cypher MC recruitment, Cypher Camp, SA Camp, Radiate (COOS) Camp, etc.. Last sat, we celebrated Wenjie's bday at church hawker.. it was cool and we enjoyed every single bit as a cell.. more to come.. anyway, i had loads of pasta made by my mum yesterday.. gosh, i finished it all..

Commitment + Responsibility + Passion??

It was then I realised that being a mentor isn't easy.. being someone who felt everything ard him was empty.. until there was Passion.. that was the driving force.. I've learnt quite a bit of things these few days.. Was talking to my mentor abt my commitment in my sch, etc.. I guess some things are better to be put into action rather than words.. I define commitment as putting my passion into responsibility.. My passion is to serve.. and I guess I still like the sch life I'm living in.. right now.. especially SA.. I hope I can still run for SA elections as well as Student Union elections.. let's hope I can, coz my passion is to serve others.. it's been great knowing all my fellow SAs.. been greatly blessed by them though.. hope the culture continues.. as for SU, I guess I wanna try again and make the necessary changes if possible..

Relationships??

hahaz.. it's been cool.. abt me + '*****' and I guess I need to buck up in my relationship with my Heavenly Father.. it's been quite some time since I wrote a song.. and I promised Daddy to do so, every week.. till then, will I put my heart with '*****'.. after putting Daddy first.. I hope this is the right decision.. Daddy knows it best.. '*****' - hope you understand.. I know you do..

Church matters.....

It's been really cool.. esp the sec 1s.. i treat them like my very own brothers and sisters.. hope they would understand how we felt when we were in sec 1.. we are concerned coz we dun wan them to end up.. lost!! erm, I'm really praying for a revival in their lives.. in this era, at this pt of time to capture their purpose in life.. living for Jesus.. Tat's for sec 1s..

Poly cell is cool.. seeing them later.. it really brings me hope, peace and joy whenever i see any of them.. it's been the best time ever!!

Music team.. band 2.. hope we get a name real soon.. i really enjoyed every session with you all!! Keep it up!! Hope to see our band grow to higher heights!! Let's rock the house!!

Thanks to PC, Gabriel for always availing yourselves when I needed a listening ear.. Thanks to '*****' too.. you know who u are.. =)

That's all for now.. the best is yet to come..

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Lord, restore me.. Make me whole + holy.. What else can I ask for?? - Your Love."

Broken.. Wonder Why??

It's Mother's day today.. things looked fine and fun.. though I had a long night with Jac Seah, Jac Lin and Yangwei, watching movie after eating at Swensens, celebrating Xing Yu's bday.. Anyway, we watched The Jacket..

Came back home ard 2am.. and felt everything was doing great.. Met my mentees from Siling Secondary yesterday, went for music practice, sound check, sec 1 cell, youth service, dinner with cell, movies..... wah!! never feel so great!!

Yesterday's sermon was great.. was asked why I didn't went up for alter call.. tot of doing so but I didn't want to at this time I guess.. I didn't feel broken at all.. Maybe I'm lying or maybe I'm half-awake..



Broken.. That gave me a thought to write today.. It's been with me for many years..

Till..... I fell off this chair juz now.. couldn't believed tat I fell off a chair tat has been wif me for ages!! anyway, this is how I feel..... broken.. like this chair.. holding on to so much.. on my own.. it's time to really give it all up to the Lord.. My dad screamed at me juz now in the car.. I remembered wat Pastor Darren said.. so I kept my cool and in my heart, told God how painful it is..

Anyway, my mum finally bought her bday present today.. as for my laptop batt.. which failed me and I sent it for repair.. it's beyond repair.. my dad is sponsoring me the batt.. it means I've to take care of it.. better this time.. learn from mistakes..

I guess the broken chair really helped.. God is really teaching me.. i prefer a still small voice.. haha.. guess the physical realm helped even more significantly.. haha..

What history will you make today?? thx PC for always asking me tat.

Tat's all.. do leave me a comment for my entry k??

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"What History did you make today??"