Nearer to Success.....

Had my driving test an hour ago.. my heart was pounding like crazy.. i thank God for my cell who have always been so supportive, encouraging.. Guess wat?? i failed the test.. I've got 32 points.. ~ was supposed to be 12 (for ur info)..

As I was looking at the score sheet tat my instructor passed me earlier on, i could sense something telling me.. beware of the striking of kerb.. as u all might know, striking a kerb costs ya 10 points.. guess wat?? do the math urself.. u'll figure it out..

I've learnt something today as I draw closer to getting my license.. for ur info, all my testers are really lenient and cool.. it wasn't the malay tester anymore.. he was transferred back to HQ.. God is really looking after me.. the tester said.. I didn't rush ya.. Take ur time.. it reminded me of Jesus, my Lord telling me.. My precious son, I'm not rushing ya to grow.. take ur time.. watch and pray..

I called my asst cell leader right after my test.. was not feeling ultra sad.. but was feeling disappointed.. but something in me kept telling me.. grades doesn't matter.. it's who u pursue.. i realised as i pursue Him, as I chase after Him and capture His heart, He will listen to me and grant me His blessings, etc.. sometimes He does bless me without me pursuing Him.. but is this wat i really want??

As I came so close to my success, it shows me how often we used our physical strength to tackle the problem.. today, i left it to the Lord when PC msged me and said put ur confidence in Him.. I'm sure tat this lesson left me a deep impression and shows me tat I'm not exactly ready.. yet..

I'll continue to pursue Him.. He knows my faults, my wrongs, my sins.. As I seek Him for repentance, I wanna be reflective of my doings and be a reflector of Jesus Christ, my Lord, Redeemer and Father..

Thank you for the prayers.. to my gathering of the peas.. I love you all!!

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Jesus looks at the heart, not at your grades or achievements."

NTU Cell Outing + Gathering

So Blessed..... by a great cell..

Besides my Poly cell, it's really an honour to be in the midst of NTU cell.. these pple are a great bunch of fun, loving, talented children of God!! Let's grow together spiritually.. Tertiary band to come!!

We were at the church's bus stop..... heading to Holland Village, NYDC!!


NTU Cell Outing..... Great to be with them!!


Brother, drink it all up!!


Brother Kelvin, I drunk liaoz lah.....


NTU Cell Gathering..... Tertiary band!! on its way..

The cell outing was at NYDC.. Holland Village.. had a great lunch, etc.. then we went to one of the cell member's house.. slowly guess who lah.. anyway, we discovered lots of talent.. we have "M", "KC", "KC2", "KO aka H.M", "J" and "E"..... All the weird short forms here.. dun really like to name pple unless they wanna be revealed.. at least not now..

Tertiary Band??

Realised tat we could really form another band?? Tertiary band.. on its way!! fresh from the oven!! Really enjoyed jamming at tat place and really enjoyed the presence of God..

Nothing beats the fellowship of God's pple.. praise God for NTU cell (Enthu.Cell) and Poly cell (Fellowship of the peas - SP, NP, TP, NYP, RP)..

Til then.. Tertiary Band rox!!

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Blessed to those who gives + serves wholeheartedly, willingly."

Family Dinner + Thoughts of the day.....

Wow!! After my driving lesson..

Came back home + tired..... but great.. coz i could cook for my mum + sis tonight..... *re-fueling my energy*

Speciality for Monday:


Nice?? Mixture of Pasta.....


Nicely made pasta with nice sauce..... *drool*


Specially made Mushroom Soup Pasta for my little sister.....


Close-up of the speciality pasta.


Close-up of the tomato-based pasta.. my mum's & my dinner..


Happy Family Pasta Fiesta!!

Cooking for my family, it's my personal dream.. Feel so happy when they like my cooking.. it's like a great achievement I've made.. maybe I should be a CHEF.. or should I juz stick to my IT consultant thingy..... haha..... anyone drooling??

Thoughts.....

They always slip into my mind for no particular reasons.. I was driving and I was thinking through the day.. I was having a nice chat wif "J" and I guess it's been fruitful and hope tat I'm been encouraging rather than discouraging.. many times, human fails to be sensitive or rather all the times.. i hope to be a great friend to "J".. wonder if she will get to read it.. I hope "J" does.. Saw "J's" blog and really impressed by it.. maybe "J" is right abt it.. it juz wun last i guess.. no matter wat happens, I'll be there for ya, "J".. =)

Others tots slip in too.. the most silly tot.. to quit sch and start working.. i guess tat's not wat God wans from me now.. I shall finish my studies, get a gd job or something.. I can sense God's love hovering over me.. telling me to fulfill my purpose in life.. to honour my parents, my siblings, my relatives, friends and all who comes by my life..

I'm really thankful for my cell, my accountability, my parents, esp my cool sister and my friends who are there to support me, listen to me and care for me.. running through tots.. Wonder wat's next??

I need a PDA phone.. praying hard for it.. Tat's in my wishlist.. *hint* *hint*
My birthday still far away.....

Anyway, leaving all these to God.....

Tat's all for now.. may post another one later..

Till then.....

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Love is real when displayed through many ways or at least one way."

Resurrection Day + Reflection Day

As I come into your presence, Lord..... as I run into your altar.. as I kneel before ur throne..

Here I am, ready to give my life away for ya.. for me to live is Christ and to die is gain.. indeed, life's purpose is for Christ, coz life's nothing when there isn't Christ.. many instances in my life had clearly shown me abt life itself.. without Christ, I Am Nothing. to die is gain, coz there we meet our Heavenly Father, praising Him in the heavens!!

Reflections.....

Was thinking of getting a PDA phone - kinda ridiculous having 3 devices and I prefer to have only one device for convenience sake. know tat pple have been advising me abt which phone to get, prices, etc. some even asked me whether it is necessary.

Question for the day..... Do I need it?? or Do I want it?? or is it an absolute need but also a want, to a certain extent?? Other tots came.. like.. Do I really love God?? Do I really wanna know Him deeper?? What's life to me?? All these questions were answered at the cross... How to love God?? - I guess it's personal.. as for me, loving GOD is not juz our Quiet Time, Service Time, Cell time, etc..... it's far beyond tat. it's loving His pple and we tend to forget abt them. we often remember ourselves only.

Back to the question - Do I really need a PDA phone??

No comments I guess.....

Mood: Smoky.
Hairstyle: A mess of bush.

Pray tat everything will be fine and Lord, take control.

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Nothing beats God's heartbeat for His people."

Relaxed + Refreshed.

Had my driving lesson today..... supposed to go sch in the morning but wasn't feeling well to do so. Hope the FOP (Freshmen Orientation Programme) meeting went well.

Driving was great after the last 2 failures. so happy that I performed better than expected for my driving. I'm more determined to pass this time. Hope I do pass.

Bought CDs today!! Hillsong United's "Look to You" and Ross Parsley's "I Am Free". Listening to both CDs and will watch tat United's DVD soon.....

I was shopping alone and travelled back home. As I was doing so, I was listening to the CD and tots flashed through my mind.....

Anyway, let's talk abt dinner first..... I'm hungry.

Here's my dinner:


Pasta Cooked


Potatoes!!


Drying up pasta!


Final product!! My dinner for the day!!

Had my dinner, tots ran through my mind..... called my sec 1 guys while cooking dinner, was thinking of how I can reach out to them effectively. Dinner was great..... thinking of cell, poly cell and sec 1 cell. how to be effective?? i'm relaxed and refreshed as the Lord kept reminding me tat He loves me. no matter how well/bad i do, no matter wat sins i've made, He still loves me. Lord, cleanse my heart, soul and mind.

Grades!!

My classmate was asking me abt my module grades. Here goes: it wasn't better than my 1st semester but guess wat?? I got 3.5 for my GPA (Grade Point Average).. it was slightly lousy than wat i've got previously, which is 3.6 for my GPA. I was a bit disappointed but I was reminded again and again, He loves me no matter wat results i've got. tat's wat i learnt from Believer Music. It's really amazing to get 3.5 as I almost failed one of my modules. Praise God for His love, mercy and grace!!

I really feel relaxed now.. things are really getting better.. Refreshed coz i've made up my mind to follow Him all the way, leaving my past, bit by bit, day by day, moment by moment.

Till then, nothin else matters except to seek His love, His kingdom and everything abt Jesus. Lord, help me to be a bridge, to bridge people to You.

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Nothing is impossible with our Lord Jesus Christ."

Relationships + Life Greatest Purpose

What abt relationships?? What is life greatest purpose??

Questions pops out now and then. I juz came back from cell and SA (Student Ambassadors) Train the Trainers Camp.

Relationships.....

I had my first christian (serious) relationship ard end year 2000. I guess y I said serious was becoz I had lots of relationships tat were not really fruitful or even considered as 'playful act'. I wasn't serious abt those relationships and I knew the root of the problem. It wasn't anyone ard me or God. Though I was blaming everyone and escaping, I guess I've to learn my lessons.....

Root of the problem: 'Fatherless'. There is nothing, absolutely nothing tat beats relationships tat God has given ya. One of such is the earthly family. Through the years, I never had a 'Fatherly' figure to look up to and only had a spiritual Father to look after me. I wished I had been more accountable and obedient to my youth pastors (whom I really respect, furthermore, they were my God-Fathers.) from St Hilda's Church, Generation Acts. If I had focused on God totally, I wouldn't be stuck or 'stagnant' or lacking.

Restoration.....

Through these years, I've been trying to ask God to restore me. Trying isn't gd enough. I want and desire to be restored after so many years of searching and seeking of the wrong relationships. Why?? Coz God has the greatest plan for me, plans to make me prosper, plans not to harm me but benefit me, plans towards eternity. I believe and trust in God tat I'll be restored and He is doing His work in me, though I may fail Him, I wanna be closer to Him each time, each day, every single step I take.

Life Greatest Purpose.....

What is life greatest purpose?? Life greatest purpose is actually having a relationship with Jesus..... or rather God. Y?? Coz of sin, we were separated from God. Life is meaningless when God is not in your life at all. We would juz be living for the sake of living, we would juz care abt our lives, the food we eat, the clothes we wear, thinking of our next meal, next step in life, etc. A life of such brings little or no value at all. Life would be meaningful if we bring ourselves to God through prayer, communicating wif God, our living God..... YES!! if we can have a genuine, fruitful relationship wif Him, it is as gd as we are in the garden of Eden..... having the best relationship wif God is life greatest purpose.

What are you waiting for?? Grab tat chance now before it slips away!!

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Life is meaningless without Jesus."

Purpose Driven + My Life Testimony.

Many times, we really have to ask ourselves to reflect whether we are purpose driven..... A journey set ahead of me reveals how my purposes were set and my testimony as a kid till being an adult and how to impact people ard you.....

Are you ready for a purpose driven journey?? Are you set to go??

I'm sure you wld love to have one..... a journey full of purpose, so that you wun feel out of place again, so that you wun feel bad abt life ever again.

I was never exposed to christianity until the age of 10. I'm pretty glad and amazed at how God protected me and led me into His home, His kingdom.

He was really like a Father to the fatherless.

He led me out from my wrongs and sins..... I was 'baby-sitted' at that time when my dad wasn't ard, he was in a faraway place which my mum always tell me. I visited my dad every week in a place where he didn't deserve to be in, in a place with juz 4 walls, in a place where no chances were given. In due of that, I became 'fatherless'. By now, you shld know tat place already. yeah, it's the prison, jail, etc..... I was never ashamed abt my family background or status.

I was accepted by my primary school friends (neighborhood sch). They didn't reject me and I'm glad till now..... It was in my 'baby-sitting' period, at a christian family's place, tat I started knowing the Lord through my disgraceful act..... as u know kids like toys like lego, etc..... i began to 'take' or rather 'steal' in this context, the pieces of lego..... it went on for a few weeks..... i can't remember everything but i can remember tat i was caught, asked and threatened, i was scared. I was threatened to be brought to the police if I dun tell the truth, etc..... i was a quiet kid then, a kid wif no agenda, no purpose, no life, full of anger and emotions deep within coz my father wasn't wif me.....

I admitted it, confessed it and tat's how my life began..... they brought me to church one day and i enjoyed the company of new faces, people..... though shy..... remember, i was really a quiet guy till age of 16..... week after week, i've learnt abt the Lord, etc. In my heart, i've given up my authority over my life and given it up to Jesus..... I cannot really remember the actual date of my conversion. but i know it's between the age of 10 to 12.

That's how I knew the Lord. I left my first church coz they were strangers to me even i see them week after week, etc..... i dun feel belonged. I came to serve at St Hilda's Church when I was 15 and trained as a leader at tat time and was baptised on Christmas tat year, 25th December 1996. I was reborn again and things started to happen, change, etc.

There was a lot of relationships going on when I was 16 & beyond which I wun mention for now..... till I came to another church, got kicked out coz of some relationship matters and came to COOS (Church Of Our Saviour). I shared my experience in regards to my previous church and the reason I was kicked out from tat church (which I wun mention the name of the church) with my NS cell members tat time when I was still in tat cell.

Purpose Driven??

I came to Republic Polytechnic (RP) with only one agenda full of passion. I could have gone to other polytechnics and get great results and recognition but..... I knew God has a purpose in my life as much of wat He did and provided during my ITE days..... I came for the sole purpose tat tis polytechnic will be filled with christians, who will stand on their feet and declare tat Jesus is their Lord and Saviour..... Studies is my number 2 agenda..... coz without God, there isn't a purpose in life. I wun go into details for now..... of coz i welcome feedback and stuff..... Purpose Driven - My passion, compassion & love for people.....

Till then, what is your purpose in life? What drives you? There's really nothing else except God and His kingdom. What else is worth our time? Technology will fade, Fashion will fade, everything will fade..... What is seen is temporary, what is not seen is eternal.

What are you waiting for??

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"I have decided to follow Jesus.. No turning back, No turning back."

Cell Outing..... Service + Dinner!!

3pm..... at Orchard MRT station.....

the sec 1 cell met up and we were heading towards tangs..... at the bus stop, we waited for the City Buzz services..... went to Esplanade!! had chocolate thingy..... at a chocolate bar..... wah!! it's really nice to have it there sia.....

then ian and I bought food from thai express as we didn't had lunch, etc..... thereafter, we went up to the roof terrace..... i remembered tat it was Joline who brought me there last year..... 27th Nov..... we went there and had BK..... sat there for a long and nice chat..... nice place..... tat was after Sat service.....

it was so fun..... seeing the sec 1s enjoying themselves..... though yi sin was the only boy there and 11 other gals..... thank God there's Ian and me..... so tat yi sin wldn't feel so awkward..... we had loads of fun..... post a pic here for now..... more will come but not now.....


Cell Outing

it was really a great time..... awaiting for the next cell outing..... it wld be even better and hope our bonds will grow stronger.....

service was really cool..... dinner was kinda quiet as the leaders went for leaders' retreat..... yah..... jo was 'annoyed' by me..... as much as i was 'annoyed' by her..... haha..... wondering wat rite?? dun tell ya..... lolz.....

hope to have more fun times like these.....

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Nothing can separate us from the love of God."

Meetings, Meetings, Meetings..... When will these end??

Meetings..... tons of them.....

when will they ever end?? I guess, almost never..... cell meetings, music ministry meetings..... i think they should be quite serious and fun at the same time..... but today's meeting for the FOP was a bit chaotic..... haha..... coz i'm typing minutes and I have a bad cold..... (in air-conditioned room now)..... am i crazy?? YES!!!!!

tmr also got FOP meeting..... thx God for giving me some wise ideas to pass it on..... sometimes i really think tat God has placed all of us for a specific reason..... is to serve Him, capture His heartbeat..... reaching out to His pple..... His own children..... Yes, our brothers and sisters..... in Christ..... all the more, we should learn to tolerate, love and cherish one another.....

May RP be a great harvest field for all believers..... whether is it CHC, NCC, COOS, FCBC, COS, etc..... coz we serve only One God..... Jesus.....

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"The word is out, You're alive!!"

Great Day!! Awesome.....

Cell was great today!!

Was in school for PP (Professional Profiling) workshop which is kinda useless to me as the speaker wasn't clear of what he was saying!!

Anyway, went for a great movie..... In Good Company..... with my friend..... then went for cell..... cell was great..... feedback, prayer, worship, etc..... and it was also a time to open up..... cell is gonna be more interesting..... more interesting than ever before.....

yawnz..... gotta go..... chaoz!!

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Great day to be living for the gospel and His name."

Thoughts..... Reflection.....

Thoughts, Images, Memories.....

flew through my mind today..... i cried at the feet of His throne..... feeling lost..... aimlessly moving..... without direction, without purpose..... As I come into His presence..... past the gates of praise..... I see hope, joy, love, faith.....

i found a pack of lies..... lying ard..... in my heart, mind..... deceiving me all these while..... I have a loving God, Father to the fatherless, Comforter to the broken-hearted..... I realised tat life isn't gonna be the same..... tat experience I had when I was in the toilet..... O Lord, I need Your mercy, Your love, Your anointing, Your fervent spirit.....

Take away the lies..... destroy it, burn it..... Lord, I've decided to follow You..... all the days of my life..... No turning back, No turning back.....

My prayers were answered..... in a cool and unique way..... anyway, thx gin for the tagging..... thx for being a great friend..... u know wat?? Ginny is a great friend..... whose interests are similar to mine..... kinda cool..... talking to her seems easier..... anyway, thx jo for tagging my blog too..... erm..... dun worry abt anything..... reports, archery..... you will make it in Jesus' name.....

A song for all who sees this entry.....

What love the Father has lavished on us
That we should be called His sons and daughters
Precious in His sight
Greater love this world had never seen
When He hung on that tree
O why would He do such a thing
For dirty sinners like you and me?

Chorus:

O God thank You for loving me
When on the cross You made history
Lord You died for me
Forever my praise will go to Thee
O God thank You for choosing me
To be Your child and bear Your name
O Jesus I will never cease to sing Your praise

Verse 2:

Your love is patient and humble and kind
It's greater than all my sin
It always protects and trusts and hopes
And will have no end
It's Your love that lifted me up from the depths
Set my feet on a solid rock
With a firm place to stand
Lord I always will trust in Your loving hand

Bridge:

How wide how long
How high how deep
How endless is Your love for me
How wide how long
How high how deep
How endless is Your love for me

Ending:

Thank You for loving me
Thank You for loving me
Thank You for loving me
Thank You for loving me
Thank You for loving me
Thank You for loving me

Indeed, Lord..... thank You for loving us.....

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"Thank You for loving me, Lord Jesus."

Tonight's Menu..... + A prayer.....

Wow!! I was really bored till I cooked today..... hahaz.....

Who wants to try my cooking?? My mum and sis loves my cooking.....
Rare chance to try..... anyone onz??


Pasta cooking..... in action.....


Tonight's main dish.....


Tonight's Soup of the Day.....


Cheese Omelette.....


Leaking Cheese.....

Erm..... after seeing the pics, any takers?? if not, juz too bad for ya.....
Had a great dinner though.....

=)

In His Love,
Kenny Ong
"A prayer a day brings you closer to Jesus once more."

My Precious Guitars..... They are cool, isn't it??

Finally, the master piece of the night..... polished, clean and wow!! nice sound!!


Much clearer..... blue strings..... nice rite?? EG10SC.....


Now can you see it?? Nice rite?? the newly replaced strings..... can see the cool colour?? it's..... Peacock Blue!!


Still can't spot the difference?? Make a guess..... what should I say?? Polished it, etc.....


hmmm, y the same pic again?? nope, it's not..... look carefully.....


These 2 guitars..... looks too similar..... like twins sia..... spot the difference.....


Yamaha DW105C..... one of the coolest guitar I ever owned prior to my Takamine EG10SC.....


Takamine EG10SC..... with the original strings.....


Takamine EG10SC


My precious guitars!! Left: Yamaha DW105C, Right: Takamine G Series EG10SC